Ode to a pill.

[00:00:00] I crave your abilities. [00:00:03] The abilities that stops me from being able to feel. [00:00:21] I crave the fuzziness that surrounds me in darkness. [00:00:29] I crave the silen to silence all the voices. I need the newness, the discovery of things unseen. [00:00:44] I need the protection you give. You shield me from those that are mean. I miss the ritual. [00:00:55] The feeling of having you in my pocket. [00:00:59] The chalkiness of your stain, the bitter murky of your taste. I miss being unaware to what happens in real time. [00:01:15] I miss the feeling of your body melting on my tongue. I miss the thoughts of one more pill and I'm done. [00:01:30] I miss the secret, the hidden fact of being. Being an addict. I even miss the accusations of being a junkie. A name no one really fathoms. It just kinda happens. They don't stop and think. They are the reason you seek the numbness. They are the reason you're always nowhere. One hits. It's not a disease. It's a choice one makes. It's the person who puts that pill on their tongue. It's the person who chooses to make life become. [00:02:08] There's a choice to make before you pull that trigger. There's more to life. More things to consider. [00:02:16] Be careful in making these life path decisions. [00:02:23] There's some choices you can't take back. Some that robs you of your vision. [00:02:32] Know the truth fully without bias. [00:02:38] Be kind with yourself. [00:02:43] Don't be irrational. [00:02:47] There's always a way to correct your mistakes. [00:02:54] It's you who holds the keys. It's you who chooses which path to take.