The Apple Tree

[00:00:02] Now you want to come back after I'm all healed. [00:00:07] What does that say about you? [00:00:09] What truth do you believe that reveals? [00:00:18] Yeah. [00:00:20] You had to break me. Shatter me. The tiny broken pieces yielding your hammering words like a drawn out thesis. My self worth was costly. The price of the man was dramatic. It's like the more I remain false and the more you grew ecstatic the more my bow bends to cater to the toxic ego within you. The heart of life became to continue. Your inconsistency became a trigger, A constant round up in my queries. Am I not good enough? Am I not the one meant to make your future bigger? Am I the one misunderstanding the deceit? Before long you became the person I wish I never got the chance to meet. [00:00:51] Yeah. My eyes started open as my jagged shattered pieces fit back together. I found myself changed. My outlook was renewed. You slowly became someone the inner strength within me outgrew. [00:01:02] I started to silently question your motives. I prompted narratives of what was wrong with you. Internally, I reflect on the notion of why your soul found it so comforting to lie. [00:01:12] That's what happens to a woman who is lost. She starts to ask the right questions that plague her thoughts. Starts to calculate what was worth the cost. [00:01:23] We trace down the facts surrounded by the impossible perception of who we truly believed you to be. Only to find out you were well rooted in disastrous pastimes. Deeply rooted like an apple tree of sin. One more blame about how we have you the apple. Refusing to take accountability of the forbidden. No wonder our relationship was doomed. There's no way anyone would win. [00:01:44] It turns out you can't make a home with a carpenter who maintains no clear vision. How can he build a foundation when he can't clearly make any decisions? [00:01:54] How can we design a future based on illusions of a person who was never meant to last? The only option to save myself was to leave you dangling from a wire in my past. [00:02:05] That's the reality I've invested in. Future. Without you where I'm headed, I won't have time for house plants with pots they've outgrew. You've been tripping. Now imagine what happens when I'm succeeding. There's no telling what mischief you get into. [00:02:20] In my business we call that a liability. A man with no constitution, no self control, no personal restraint. Now it's time to show you what a reality without me is so that you can clearly see the awesome truth is you're never going to find another woman like me. [00:02:37] The woman who tried to breathe life into an imposter. The deeply Rooted, toxic dead inside Apple tree there's a reason your soul is filled with worms. Imagine my surprise when enlightenment hit me finding out you were never someone I deserved. You had me drunk on your apple wine until I was hooked on your reserve. Instead of pouring your love into me seizing the chance to take our love and make history a preserve you took the toxic opportunities presented thinking I never leave because you assumed I'd never have enough nerve. [00:03:06] Yeah, that's where you fucked up. Thinking you make your permanent home in this pure heart of mine. I have the strength to cut you. I've been strengthened by the divine. You should have been smart enough to see that. Now I've gotten over you with time. [00:03:24] Now you want to come back for what? [00:03:29] Yeah, I'm not sure. Heartbreak like that is made once a lifetime. [00:03:34] I'm not going to lower my standards to allow the pain you give to resurrect. [00:03:39] Yeah, a word of advice before your ass gets checked. If you step to me, your ass better come correct. I'm not the same woman your brazen ego had broken. Your lifetime access into the heart of me has been revoked Truth be told, I'm surprised you're still living with as much as I pray that you choke I'm shocked you can still find people who will entertain your lies the poor unfortunate souls who actually believe you when you cry now is the time to leave it at the tone you haven't changed have nothing new to show no new evidence to prove the ways you might have grown Sit and swallow the truth old ghost you can't have have access to the woman you told others you wish you've never known don't plead for understanding there's no chance for you to plead your case no chance at redemption when it's you who chose to burn down my nation I don't need to hear you out don't care about the various ways you might have been done wrong why don't you take all those lies you cling to write them down and put them in a song yeah, let it tell the world about pitiful old you A ballad of how the woman you love had it all wrong I'm not saying it won't be a toe tapper It'll give me a platform to prove how loving you made me strong it'll stand as an example a cautionary tale of hell no woes A ditty about a woman who can't love a man she's outgrown yeah, a reason to serve as a reminder to rise not falling fruitless rotten apple trees, Sam.